Just finished reading chapters 42-47 of Genesis and it was about Joseph being reunited with his brothers and father.

After such a gruesome act of betrayal and undeserved suffering, in the end, Joseph says in chapter 45 verses 4-8:

Then Joseph said to his brothers, “Come close to me.” When they had done so, he said, “I am your brother Joseph, the one you sold into Egypt! And now, do not be distressed and do not be angry with yourselves for selling me here, because it was to save lives that God sent me ahead of you. For two years now there has been famine in the land, and for the next five years there will be no plowing and reaping. But God sent me ahead of you to preserve for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives by a great deliverance.“So then, it was not you who sent me here, but God. He made me father to Pharaoh, lord of his entire household and ruler of all Egypt.

Joseph’s pain was no longer there. It appears like he was even thankful to God that he was sold into slavery bec. without going through that horrendous experience, he and his family would not have survived the famine. Joseph understood. Everything finally made sense, though at the beginning it didn’t. I don’t know exactly how long Joseph was in such predicament before finally experiencing relief and freedom. All I know is that he was in prison for 2 years before he was given the opportunity to interpret Pharaoh’s dream. Nevertheless, Joseph still trusted in God. That was why God blessed all that he did, even inside prison. Then from prison, God promoted him to a position of power! 

We might not understand why we are going through sad situations in life. Why God would even allow these things to happen to us. I mean, yeah, we trust God and even though it’s so hard we continue to trust Him, but when is all this ever going to stop?-you might ask. I’ll tell you, just continue trusting. He is a God of happy endings.  As it says in Romans 8:28:

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whohave been called according to his purpose.

Being a bereaved mother who lost her son a year ago and still experiencing ripple effects from it,  I could relate to Joseph in so many levels but I’ve got to continue trusting and putting my faith in God whose ways and thoughts are far above mine. As it is written in Isaiah 55:8-9:

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.

For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

I know that at the end, just like Joseph, I’ll be thanking God because finally I would understand that it was all for me and my family’s good. Finally, it will all make sense. Thank you Lord. 

Now comparing my life to Job.. that’s another blog entry :)

-VLS 8.5.14

Parable of the Lost ID Badge

I went to work last Friday without my ID Badge with my cabinet and laptop keys. On my way to work that morning, I realized that I didn’t have it with me. I wanted to apply for a new badge anyway coz I didn’t like my picture, but then getting new keys would me a more difficult task. My co-workers suggested to look for them at home first coz I might still be able to find it. So Friday evening, I looked for it, but didn’t find it. Saturday passed, I still can’t find it. Sunday evening after we got home, I started praying. My husband and I then went and looked inside the car. After searching all over the car, the last place he looked was at the passenger’s seat (my seat). He seriously searched for my badge and the keys under the seat, under the rug.. he spent maybe 5 minutes in that spot. Note that it was night time already and it was a dark place due to insufficient lighting. From behind him I was watching him and felt God speak to me. He reminded me of the parable of the lost coin/sheep. I felt Him say: “If only you would be serious in finding the lost for God the same way that you are earnestly searching for your ID badge and keys”.. then I sort of had the feeling that my ID badge is going to be found and that God was just using this experience to teach me something. My husband stood up from his kneeling position but nada. I started feeling hopeless again. We went back to our apartment and started searching again. My husband looked inside a lunch bag that I used to use, but no longer use and voila! He found my badge with the keys there! He said he probably placed them inside that bag by mistake when he emptied the lunch bag that I now use. Then I told him about what God told me. I went on telling him that I’m the type who kinda feels like a evangelist at heart coz once I bring someone to the Lord, it’s goodbye. LOL. LIke, okay, I’ve done my part. It’s your decision whether you want to keep coming to church or not. If not, I ain’t gonna force you.  I know that we need to follow-up like what our pastor keeps reminding us to do, but I guess this is just what I needed to experience coz I felt how badge and my keys were so important for me. My workplace is so high tech that I can’t go to the restroom nor use the elevator without my badge bec. the doors wouldn’t open without the sensor in our badge! And without my keys, I can’t open my cabinet that has my laptop where I do all my work! I mean, to God, people’s souls are much much more important than a lost ID badge with keys. He came to earth, assumed the life of a humble carpenter, then was mocked, cursed at, endured physical and emotional suffering, was battered, whipped, crucified, died.. and then at the end, rose again! That’s what Jesus did so that the lost be found. Now Jesus is asking us believers to reach out to the lost coz we too were in the same state. People need Jesus! Let’s continue the great act of love that Jesus did on the cross not by crucifying ourselves, but by showing genuine compassion to others, knowing that the only true thing they need in life is Jesus. If one of the 2 commandments that Jesus gave was to “Love your neighbors as you love yourselves”, let’s show them love by introducing them to the One who loves them, the One who has been searching for them, the One who laid His life down for them. Jesus. <3

John 10: 7-18

Therefore Jesus said again, “Very truly I tell you, I am the gate for the sheep. All who have come before me are thieves and robbers, but the sheep have not listened to them. I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved.[a] They will come in and go out, and find pasture. 10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

11 “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12 The hired hand is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. 13 The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep.

14 “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16 I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 17 The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. 18 No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father.”

Thanks for reading and God bless!


P.S. You may listen to my singing/guitar playing/exhortation/scripture reading at Soundcloud, username: beeralin

The Loft.. The Calling

Matthew 16:24-27 NLT

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul? For the Son of Man will come with his angels in the glory of his Father and will judge all people according to their deeds.

Just bought a new batch of additions to my work wardrobe. I’m such a cheapskate so of course I was doubting myself whether my judgment of needing to buy these clothes. But then I do need them. After trying them on, I left out 3 items and fell in line. Actually there was no one in line, no one being helped. I was there in front of the register second guessing myself. Good thing the cashier was elsewhere. When she came, I left the clothes on the table and made a phone call to my husband coz I needed a confirmation. As usual, he would support me in my shopping (very rare that I actually end up buying sonething) and so I went back to the register, accepted the offer to apply for The Loft credit card and got a 20% discount! Now I’m reading this + knowing God has called me to do His work~ not knowing what it is exactly~and I feel convicted. I’m now saying, “Lord, what is it that you want me to do?” I feel like Abraham wherein He’s telling me to go into this journey without knowing where to go, only He will lead me. It’s just Him and I the path of the unknown.

Monday back to work random thought. 7.28.13.

Glad I was able to control myself and not sing spontaneous Frozen songs today at the office.

@ Philip&#8217;s French Dipped Sandwiches

@ Philip’s French Dipped Sandwiches

Saint Vincent&#8217;s a.k.a &#8220;B&#8221;

Saint Vincent’s a.k.a “B”

#Jesusiscomingsoon #thetimetochooseisnow …”that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. For “whoever calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.” (Romans 10:9, 13 NKJV)

Music Store

The other day I went for a short walk for my lunch break and decided to check out this little quaint music store. After a few seconds of entering the store, this almost-bald headed man in his 60’s greeted me. He stood inside the cashier booth and I slowly walked down the narrow aisle, looking up at the hanging guitars. He later on asked me if I was interested in something. I said that I was just looking around. He then told me that they offer instrument lessons. I told him that I’m a beginner in the guitar and that I did need to learn more on how to strum coz I only know 2 styles of strumming. I also told him that my friend who plays the guitar way better than I encourage me that I’ll learn by practice. The cashier than asked me: “Who are you going to believe, your friend or the music teacher?” I answered, “Well, I haven’t even met the music teacher?!” .. LOL.. I then changed the topic. I asked him how much a guitar tuner would cost. He answered $20. I kept mum. He asked me what price I had in mind. I told him I wasn’t sure but I knew that the one they sell at the music store close to where I live costs much cheaper.. probably $17. The man then answered: “What are you going to do with $3 anyway?!” I just smiled, said thank you, and walked my way towards the exit. As I was leaving the store, he was still trying to bargain with me. “Would you buy it if I gave it to you for $17? Or how about $15?” SMH..

Fast track in time, the days quickly passby
Supplying me with endurance, “I can almost see it!”, feeling overwhelmed, I cry
Through Your grace and mercy, the answer is almost here, I anticipate,
I’ve travelled so far Lord, so many hurdles I’ve overcame, YOUR VICTORY awaits!

All You Need Is Jesus’ Love

Come here, tell me your worries
Share with me all your regrets.
The person you’ve become, all the pain that’s been done
I’ll blot out the stains for I am the Son.

My grace is beautiful
Turns your canvas back into white.
You can now unload your burden
Show me where it’s hurtin’
And I’lll love you some more.


Wanting a nice house with a nice yard at a nice community and spend a nice life there.

Wanting a nice house with a nice yard at a nice community and spend a nice life there.

Just woke up..
It was difficult for me to fall asleep last night after looking through old videos of my son. So I watched 12 Years A Slave and boy did that wake me up even more! Now that&#8217;s what I call a movie! Sadly it&#8217;s based on true story. It taught me the value of freedom, of even just being called by your own name. Each whip, each insult, each hurt that a &#8220;slave&#8221; felt made my heart ache even more. My own heart ache temporarily replaced by someone else&#8217;s own.. After the movie, I went to sleep.

Just woke up..
It was difficult for me to fall asleep last night after looking through old videos of my son. So I watched 12 Years A Slave and boy did that wake me up even more! Now that’s what I call a movie! Sadly it’s based on true story. It taught me the value of freedom, of even just being called by your own name. Each whip, each insult, each hurt that a “slave” felt made my heart ache even more. My own heart ache temporarily replaced by someone else’s own.. After the movie, I went to sleep.

help me Lord.

help me Lord.

Resting on the floor, cooling off after feeling the 90+° heat outside.

Resting on the floor, cooling off after feeling the 90+° heat outside.